There are times when I feel as if my life is nothing but one futile attempt after another at having some sort of a 'real' life. Do you ever feel that way, or is it just me?
Upon further examination, the logical voice in my head (who I rarely listen to) told me this is simply because I'm in that "in-between" time... The time between college and career... The time between single and married... between being a young woman and a mother...
A feeling of disbelief followed this train of thought. My life is happening right now. It's always happening, every moment.. the idea that I'm somehow suspended in limbo for a few years after college seems unrealistic. Further, to think that my life doesn't really 'begin' til I have a career and am married with kids enrages me.